I feel like I have been away so long that it is pointless to return, mainly because i feel as if I haven’t been here in so long. I decided to suck it up and write anyway. Life has been rather crazy up and down, some good and some not so good. I have learned a lot of lessons and discovered many different thing about myself.
I am an introvert! i am not antisocial, and I feel a great sense of release knowing that I am ok. My personality is ok and that makes me feel better about who I am. Now I understand why I need to escape from the world when life becomes draining, it is ok that I would prefer to sit at home and paint or read a book rather that spend my night than being in a large group full of loud noises sucking up my energy. It is not that I don’t like people but I can only take them in small doses, I am ok!
Having my space and not constantly running my mouth is also good and it doesn’t me that I don’t like you it just means I’ve had enough and I need to hibernate. I am okay! I like small circle of friends instead of having so many people that I feel as if my head is spinning and my skin is going to peel off. I am okay! I am friendly but understand that when I need my quite time it doesn’t mean I don’t like you.
I have always struggled with the fact that I prefer to be with myself the majority of time and that I do not enjoy working in groups. I have felt guilty for not being a “team player” group work drives me insane the conflicting ideas, I like to do my own work because I feel like I can think and create without the buzz from the world around me; these thoughts made me feel like somehow I just wasn’t cut out for this world. I have been doing a lot of reading about people like me and I am relieved to know that just because I am quite and thrive in situations where I am comfortable doesn’t mean that something is wrong with me.
Today I am relieved and grateful for those who have studied people like me and can definitively say I am not antisocial or shy…
NatalieNicole
P.S. I will write more
Journey Through Pain 